Switching and self spanking

When I changed school at the age of eight to an all boys private school I found myself in an environment where teachers routinely doled out minor corporal punishment within the classroom. For most of us this was a fairly new position to be in and I think many of were a bit apprehensive about the possibility of being called to the front of a class and whacked - certainly I was worried about whether I would take my punishment well. Now, with hindsight, it's obvious that these punishments were largely symbolic and not intended to cause significant physical discomfort. However, a result of our concerns meant that several of us "played" at giving each other "beatings" - for instance I had a particularly heavyweight wooden ruler at home which I thought would be rather effective and I brought it in to give some friends the chance to experience it across their trousered backsides. Most people lost interest after a few weeks but I was now hooked. I realised that there was a potentially huge gulf between what you felt if a fellow eight-year old smacked you for fun compared to a fully grown adult hitting you as a punishment.

I moved on to self-inflicted punishments in the privacy of my bedroom whenever I had the house to myself. This gave me the chance to try a variety of implements although actually getting them to land with much force in the right place was far from easy. I quickly moved on to taking my trousers and underpants down and the self-punishments increased in severity. Now I have to emphasise that I have never had a significant submissive side. Although the fear of a classroom punishment may have started the interest. I was now more interested in knowing what it would feel like if someone else - preferably a member of the opposite sex was on the receiving end of a punishment given out by me.

Does that make me a switch I wonder? I tend to think not although I did get some sort of pleasure from the sensation I was always imagining it was someone else that was feeling it.

And, however good someone gets at, I don't think self-spanking can ever replicate a punishment administered by someone else - it's not just about angles and getting a good swing. It's like trying to tickle yourself - it just doesn't work. I think the very special thing about being on the receiving end of a good hiding is that you're handing over control to someone else - they determine the pace, the individual force of each stroke, and, most crucially, the timing.



Take the image on the right - four fairly hard strokes of the riding crop on a bare butt is quite a tingler at the best of times and in this instance, the first and third landed on exactly the same spot and the second and fourth did as well. And, yes, it did hurt - for all of about five seconds.

As a result, although I still maintain that I'm not really a switch, I'm sure that one day I may succumb to visiting someone to really punish me so I find out how it feels when I'm not in control.

In my early twenties I hung around with a mixed group where it wasn't too uncommon for one of the guys to give a girl a playful swat on the rear (and, very occasionally, one of the girls would swat a boy). We were at a birthday party and one of the girls who I had a bit of a crush on played a prank on me. I responded by giving her a single swat across the behind over her thin summer skirt. Now it wasn't the first time I'd smacked her, she clearly saw it coming and made no attempt to stop it. However, what she didn't know was that someone else had also just played a trick on me and she pushed me over the edge - I was genuinely annoyed, and I smacked her bottom just as hard as I could. Next thing I saw someone else comforting her and she was wiping a tear away from her face. Okay, so it was a bit mean of me perhaps, but however hard it was just one smack on her bottom with a skirt and (presumably) a pair of knickers in the way. I'm sure it stung a bit but her reaction was much more to do with her not being in control and getting more than she was expecting.